Many people have been checking up on me these past several days asking how I’m adjusting, asking how I’m feeling, and asking what my next move is. My answers are redundant. I feel fine. In fact, I feel great. I came here to make art and to make money, so my tunnel vision is on lock. And as for my next move, the answer is simple: to level up. Same as always.
I think that when artists uproot to NY or to LA for a better market like I did, they tend to carry their insecurities and doubt with them. As I evolve in life in general, but especially as an artist, each day I affirm more and more that worrying is for the birds.
I saved, I prayed, I prepared. I cut down my departure date by 7 months. Why? Well, why not? I am unmarried with no kids, my debt and bills would’ve been the same no matter where I live, and my rent would be expensive no matter where I live, because as a model/actress I need to be where the money’s at, and the money is either in NY, LA, Miami, or overseas depending on what market you cater to.
When you pursue something, you have to recognize that what you’re after is for YOU, that’s it. So if what you’re after is for you and you alone, there’s no need to compare your path to someone else’s. There’s no need to compare your looks to someone else’s. There’s no need to compare your skills to someone else’s. Set goals, strategize ways to achieve them, work tirelessly, and stay in your lane. There are always going to be people you feel are overrated or less talented than you, but guess what, those people aren’t thinking about you at all; they’re too busy collecting their checks.
My main focuses as of now are to find my groove, and to move out of my AirBnB into something permanent. Although I want to shoot and start showing my face, I’m in no rush. Modeling agencies aren’t going anywhere. Potential clients aren’t going anywhere. I’m staying the course and looking at the bigger picture. I’m in this game for longevity, not likes, and I know that my future is going to be far greater than anything I could ever imagine… People have been asking me if I’m ready for LA, but I’m starting to wonder if LA is ready for me.